Fathom 45: Discovering The Driver

 

Part 1: Driving Lessons 🤓

• The last (perhaps 😉) of the Chariot-inspired analogies, focusing on the entity in the Driver's seat; while it's great to understand our various Horseys, the role of the DRIVER may be the most significant... lest our Chariot end up in the ditch... repeatedly. 😅💩
• Back 16 years, it all started with 'The Watcher' introduced in The Power of Now ad, but HTF to accomplish this without judgment; despite my best efforts, functioning as a whole, healthy & skilled driver was beyond me for almost two decades. 😇🤷‍♀️
• What DRIVES the Driver?! 
• 'Coulds' & 'Shoulds' as key indicators 🔑
• Critical components for me include aligning with & living my: Purpose, Intention [Revamp coming soon! 🎉] & Values 💪
• Essential behaviours for me to apply to my various 'horseys' to maintain my Wellbeing (yes, even when they're being little shits! 😂🤦‍♀️):
• Loving 💞
• Accepting 🤗
• Being Patient 🙏
• Rewarding 🥕

Part 2: Sometime Smooth, Sometimes Swerving 🤪

• What do we do when Self Awareness isn't enough?! When all we're 'Aware' of is how shitty we're thinking, feeling & behaving, yet still unable to change it! 🤯😠
• Tuning into what Rewards our Horseys can help, but make damn sure they are TRULY rewards and not just Perceived rewards that end in Guilt... otherwise we're in for a rather bumpy ride, and I'm still on that adventure. 🤪🙈  
• For me, my #1 tool, the best I can Do, is SLOW DOWN; a simple expression for a complicated & difficult practice. ✋🙏
• If Knowing doesn't become Doing... then no, awareness won't be enough to make fulfilling improvements. Still, there's NO SHAME in the occasional swerve, otherwise life would be rather boring; I'll happily settle for no regrets. 😎👌

Fathom 44: Girls Just Want to Have Fun

Part 1: Random 'Funny' Thoughts; Health Indicator or Madness 🤪😅🤦‍♀️

• The things that keep me giggling to myself & why Internal Dialogue is a good mental health indicator 😎😜
• Strap in for the heaps of crazy random shit that runs through my brain, usually whilst walking or exercising 🤣💩
• More about Nominative Nomenclature (Determinism) for those interested 🤔💡

Part 2: Show & Tell! 👀⛅😻

• Reflecting on the Dizzy-driven Part 1, and why internal jokes are indeed best left Internal 🤷‍♀️
• Sit back, relax & laugh as I show some of the best things my 'Tism is particularly enjoying at this point in my life's adventure 💯🔆
• Fun & Existentialism... NOT mutually exclusive! 

Fathom 43: Big 'D' Energy

Big 'D' Energy Isn't Always As It Appears 🔋😂

• Intuitive knowing that whatever flavour of Neurodivergence I have must account for my supernatural Dizzy-ing energy 🤩🤪
• An Atypical 'D'-Type living in a 'AAA'-Wired world; are my oversized circuits innate, am I simply a classically Conditioned American, or is it both!? 🤔
• The perfect analogy for the Feedback that Demonised my passion & enthusiasm 💡💩
•  In general, every Body / Battery have different capacities for different situations... things that sap our energy and things that recharge us! 🪫⚡
• How to do INTEND to use our energy, what brings our Energy a sense of purpose? 🙏😎

Fathom 42: Mulish Mind & Horsey Heart

 

Part 1: Distinct Humanity & Mulish Minds 🧠

• The two things that make us distinctly human with the intention of exploring the issues and opportunities that arise by revisiting our Chariot. 🐎🃏
• The SCARF Model! Why our brains stubbornly cling to certain triggers & the Dizzy-ing behaviours that can result. 🤪😅
• Threats make our Mules bolt, while rewards are the carrots they'll chase... whether we consciously want them to respond these ways or not. 💥🥕
• My own example of taking shit personally & nearly constant anxiety, beyond all logic or Wellness-Based decision(s). 💩😳
• There is no good/bad or right/wrong, there is only Observing & Understanding these behaviours so that we can start to put ourselves back in the Driver's seat. 

Take this SCARF ASSESSMENT to Better Understand the Mulish Mind 🤓

Part 2: Horsey Hearts & Keeping on Track 🙏

• Let's strap in, explore the Horsey Heart & what happens when it's not aligned with our Mule. 🤔
• The interesting consideration that the Horsey Heart seems immune to the Experience Bias that can cripple the Mulish Mind. 😬
• My humbling example of Daringly entering the dating pool again, taking the Risk of falling for my Husband despite the Trauma & Psychotic Episode that Quilts together my relationship history. 💔💞
• Keeping these equines BALANCED is not easy, but remains a worthy effort; lest we derail our Chariot by succumbing to truly Purpose-defeating decisions or acting like miserable Pricks. 🦔

Fathom 41: Eustress & Me-Stress

 

Good Stress is Still Stress! 😅💯

• The stressors of positive change & gaslighting; conscious decisions to stay in a Wellness mindset 😇💖
• In a Tizzy & overwhelmed, in flux between the new home and work... Facilitating - My Happy Space... yet still stressful! 🤪😎
• A very naughty word... 'Just'... blah blah blah; it doesn't end well for the speaker or the listener 😅💩
• EQ... Being both stressed & grateful is possible! 🐍🙏

Photos & Videos

Dream Home Photos & Videos

NOTE: Click 'FEED VIEW' to see pictures from specific posts as the build & move-in progresses 😇🤩

Fathom 40: The Devil Inside

 

Part 1: Damned If We Do, Damned If We Don't

• Another Tarot-Inspired musing exploring the 'Material Demands' of life that can steal away our sense of Whimsy; leave us ignorant to our own Intuitive Callings 👿🔮
• Entrapment via material pursuits and/or Societal Expectation, and the plethora of nuance that Cultural normatives create 💎🔗
• Demonisation abound... What's 'Typical', 'Normal', where do we draw those lines? Will we Dare to be different? 😎🤪

Part 2: Wicked Whispers

• Exploring that relationship with our Inner Callings and considering environmental impacts... Are we 'Too Much' for the area we inhabit / people we're surrounded by? Do we make ourselves Small to 'Fit In'? 🤔🙈
• How my American Dad helped me see an alternate Perspective on our thoughts & narratives, our Inner Demons 🙉🙊💩
• Observing it's little more than the Threat-Triggered brain, a Shadow that calls for Healing 🙏💝
• Examples of my own Wicked Whispers,
• Internalised Ableism & Neurotypical FOMO 
• Being on borrowed time & Panic ... The IRONYof survivors' Guilt

Part 3: Mindful Anarchy

• Wicked Whispers as Good Intentions poorly delivered 😅💩
• SSASS-Y determination Drives me from these demons... sans the need for Pity 💞🐇
• The fine art & benefits of calling on these BULLSHIT on these thoughts... Mindful Anarchy! 💥💪
• We are not our thoughts, but we do get to CHOOSE which we take seriously and give Energy too; BE BRAVE, be a bit of an Asshole for Wellness Reasons instead of opting to be a fearful Prick 🦔🙏🙌

Key Question to Consider

Are Our Thoughts, Feelings and/or Choices the Source of Our Own Sense of Enslavement? 🤔🤯 

Fathom 39: Astounding Acceptance Array

Part 1: Acceptance and/or Understanding

• My evolution of Self-Acceptance through Identity exploration, TBI Healing & Experimentation; Knowing, FEELING, it's no longer 'optional' for my Wellbeing 💖😎꩜
• The Spectrum of Self-Acceptance, and how it relates to self-understanding... Which came first? 🐔🥚🤯
• Changes in acceptance as my understanding shifts over time, leading to my SSASS-Y Intention to finally sustain the joy, liberation, and sense of Belonging it provides... Which we all DESERVE 🙏💯
• The sweet spot... understanding ENOUGH to accept the rest! The only thing truly unacceptable about me, was that I refused to accept myself... IRONY 😅😇

Part 2: The Perks of Persistence

• Authentic joy, feeling happy for no reason; no longer trying to catch myself doing something 'wrong' 🤷🤔
• More Patience! Noticed by the lack of my usually extreme level of care & associated cortisol 😦😂
• The almost uneasy absence of Shame & Guilt, accepting my endearing Tizzy & Dizzy wild horseys 🐎🤪
• Confronting & challenging Neurotypical FOMO, life as ME - As SUMMER - Is the happiest life I can and will lead 🙉🙌 

Part 3: Conditional Courtship

• Being comfortable in our own Skin 😌👌
• Conditional couplings between Self Love & Self Acceptance; what internal 'domestic' spats look like 👿💔
• I can do no wrong, not anymore, because I'm Determined to back myself, my Values & my Intentions
• Small shifts in our internal dialogue can make SIGNIFICANT DIFFERENCES in our lives' experience 🙊💯
• Considering how external relationships reflect internal relationship 💘💞

Fathom 38: How Dare I?!

 

'What is The Most Daring Thing I've Ever Done?' 🤔

• Flying to coop, paying the Price of Freedom... on a whim; a Knowing 🕊️🔮
• Leaving the nest, paying the price for Honesty 💔💩
• Daring or cowardice is a matter of Perception, a shift signifies GROWTH ꩜🤯
• My SSASS-Y Self has a more Heartfelt Mindset 💖
• Remembering that Intention Matters, easing the fear that I made mistakes... I chose to live my Values, no regrets 🙏🙉

Fathom 37: Tizzy & Dizzy, The Divergent Tethered Twins

Part 1: Chariot Take Two & Tense Tactical Tizzy

• Revisiting the Chariot, Horseys and Driver with my own Spicy spin 💫꩜
• Google search inspired tears as I seek to Understand myself once and for all (Picture Evidence Below) 🤓😭
• Mystifying masking... Small wonder I felt confused & struggled to discern my particular flavours 🤔😳
• Getting to know Tizzy, my 'Tism... That silly shit that's addicted to routine & need control 💩😇

 

Part 2: Dynamic Daring Dizzy & Critical Couplings

• Dizzy comes by her name sake honestly... Everything all at once, all the time; all perspectives running (literally!) in parallel, constant Observation & Reflection... RELENTLESS! 😅😫
• Daring Dizzy & Tireless Tizzy, keeping the peace (unconsciously) by demanding their own time & activities 🤯
• It's finally time to tether through UNDERSTANDING, enabling SSASS-Y Acceptance 💞🙏

Part 3: Venturing Forth In Awareness & Gratitude

• Checking the couplings, hazards, intentions of each and giving both what they need to thrive, as one whole 😍😎
• Everybody has different types of horseys that can pull them all in different directions, but we're all capable of regaining control 💯💪
• Neurotypical FOMO... realising what's spooked my horseys my whole life, and made me perceive them as stunted, faulted; a dangerous and self-defeating Lie 😕🙉
• Finding, FINALLY, that I have the best possible combination to fulfil my potential 🥳🪽💖

Fathom 36: Patchwork Heart

 

Broken-Hearted Or Built-Up Beauty 🤔

• Differences between EQ and IQ & the analogical set up 💓🧠
• Reflecting on all the people/places I've lost in various ways 🤔😕
• Turning 'patchy' Pity into something far more beautiful, Beneficial & whole 😇
• My internal relationship's impact on my external 'patchy' history, how easily this was Misperceived leading to the internalised "Hot Mess" label 💩😅
• The power of SHIFTING MINDSETS & why it's tough to gain the Awareness required 💡🤯
• Relation to my SSASS-Y intention & staying aligned to this healthier 'quilted' and integrated mindset 🙏💝